Latley.....

Latley ive been feeling down, latley ive been feeling alone, latley ive been feeling useless and unloved. Im not sure why or how. I have my children but they seem so far away, my husband is distant yet right next to me. I went to see my parents and they too seem distant and unwelcoming. I dont want to sleep anymore ive slept too much im bored, i hate my job, and i have money but yet i dont. I have little debt but i feel like everything is closing in on me. Im not on my deppresants anymore, and i dont want to ever have to go down that path again it caused me alot of sickness and pain just to remove that from my life. So now what?? What do i do and where do i go? How can i have everything at my finger tips and the world in the palm of my hand, yet i have nothing, or so it feels. I dont know just some thoughts not sure what is going on, i just know i have a throbbing in my head and all i want to do is just to be alone in my happy place, but that too will soon be gone along with everything in it.