Latley.....

Latley ive been feeling down, latley ive been feeling alone, latley ive been feeling useless and unloved. Im not sure why or how. I have my children but they seem so far away, my husband is distant yet right next to me. I went to see my parents and they too seem distant and unwelcoming. I dont want to sleep anymore ive slept too much im bored, i hate my job, and i have money but yet i dont. I have little debt but i feel like everything is closing in on me. Im not on my deppresants anymore, and i dont want to ever have to go down that path again it caused me alot of sickness and pain just to remove that from my life. So now what?? What do i do and where do i go? How can i have everything at my finger tips and the world in the palm of my hand, yet i have nothing, or so it feels. I dont know just some thoughts not sure what is going on, i just know i have a throbbing in my head and all i want to do is just to be alone in my happy place, but that too will soon be gone along with everything in it.

Another thing im late on........

So another thing that is dearly important that i have not posted yet, was xanders first birthday party. We had so much fun maryvesta bought the baby a cake and some balloons and made dinner for the occassion. The party was small but soooo much fun. The little guy enjoyed his day.

I didnt get too many pictures, but the cake part was the best. He got a few presents, A ball, a play table, and a bobble penguin that has balls in it and when you hit it, it sings its reallly cute. I only have pics of the activity table lol.

Pics that are not included cuz they are on poloroid: The morning of xanders birthday I took him to cracker barrel and got him a free Coca Cola Cake and let him dig in with our cracker barrel family singing happy birthday and standing right behind us to take the pics they turned out cute and we had a blast TY Cracker Barrel and Manna for the pics.

Halloween here it is.....

Sorry its probably better late then never right, This ones for you Erin pics of my halloween.
We had a blast this year (no husband=( he had to work) we spent halloween with my friend Maryvesta and her kids Tia and Zack. We went trick or treating all day from like afternoon till evening so the kids at the end were sugared out and tired (we had to feed them candy all day to keep them going on to the next spot lol) So here is a kids dream day CANDY CANDY CANDY!!

On another note the next day greg had decided to start a new tradition PUMPKIN SMASHING!!

So included are some pics of the festivities and the pumpkins that didnt make it long lol.

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SNICKERS

Good 'ol Snickers, hasn't changed much in the years. But like the candy you are a constant for others and defy change. You are the rock, the candy all others look up to and are great for any situation.